Dying

I was going to write about this topic a couple days ago, but I found myself side tracked. I think about getting older a lot. Where I'm at, where I'll be. How I will deal with those that I love passing away and how it'll change me as a person. This isn't a topic that a lot of people like to think about so I'm sorry if this blog post upsets you in any way but I guess it'll help clear my mind if I put my thoughts on here. 

 

Pain changes people. In fact a lot of my friends that I've known in high school are almost strangers to me now. I know I'm most likely a stranger to them. For me my relationships have caused me to change the most. I'm not the person I was two years ago or even a year ago. I used to be afraid of looking in the mirror because I was unhappy with myself as a person. 

 

But that's the past and frankly I'm glad it is the past. While I find myself more stressed out now I'm happier than I was then. I'm more open minded and I believe I am more mature than I was.

Dying used to scare me tremendously when I was younger. But I've become more accepting with the thought of it now. As much as would like it not to happen it's the inevitable future for all of us. Sooner sadly for some. It's this mentality of not knowing when we're going to kick the bucket that makes me appreciate life a little more. Whether you're poor or rich, you're alive if you're reading this. You have the chance to make the day your own and bring happiness or sadness to others. The choice is yours. It's a powerful thing to think about. We all have the power to influence others lives and change them for better or worse.

If you're reading this then you have the power to make your life or those around you happy. A compliment or spending time with someone you haven't seen in the longest time.

I've found that time is the best gift you can give someone. The bond you share of both simultaneously making memories is unique to both of you. No one else will remember the memories just as you did. They are unique to you.  Time is the best gift of all, we don't know how much of it we have left, so spend it with those that deserve it the most because one day you won't be able to.

This is me. Different than I was five minutes ago and different from who I will be five minutes from now. 

This is me. Different than I was five minutes ago and different from who I will be five minutes from now.