Today while I was driving to obtain food for my mom from one of the local fast food places, a song came on the radio. "Float On" by Modest Mouse.
Immediately I was in my old house playing video games on my computer with my best friend, Devin with not care in the world. Seven years have passed since then and I long to relieve that time period of my life. It's crazy how just hearing a simple song brought back the feelings and memories I had with every beat from the song. Thinking about my childhood made me realize how much time I actually had. As an adult I feel like every minute that I'm awake matters. At times it seems like that I can't blink my own eyes because I'll miss out on an event my life because time flows so quickly. I miss the days when I was a kid playing with Lego's in a world that I had completely imagined. One that didn't have the issues our real world does today. A happy world.
A couple months ago I got Devin a job at a retail store in the mall near my house. I was happy to be able to work with him since it's hard to have time for friends with my photography business, college, and having a girlfriend. It was almost like I had gone back in time to the days when I was in middle school. However recently he has gotten a better job offer and I won't be seeing him as much. Sure, it did make me sad, but I'm happy to see him do something he wants to do, something that makes him happy. You want the best for people you care about, even if it doesn't involve you. Just another observation.
That's one of the most important things I've learned growing up... You have to be happy. Your happiness matters first because it impacts everybody around you. Sure it makes me sad, but I know that everything will work out. I just know that even if things get heavy, we'll all float on all right.