It depends on who you ask.
For me, it wasn't awful. I feel like I grew a lot as a human being and as a photographer. It's amazing actually, the difference between photos that I took a year ago and now. I'm always trying to improve myself. In the photography, industry competition runs rampant. I have seen it first hand and it isn't pretty. It is because of the competition aspect that I have been trying to improve myself so much. I don't have time to focus on what others are creating because I'm trying to create something better than yesterday.
In the year and a half that I have been shooting I've asked many people to collaborate, and most of the time they have said no. I was upset and angry when this occurred and I believe a part of me did become bitter. I feel like they let their ego get the best of them. After the many incidents where that happened I decided to not let it bother me. It was their loss and I would become better at what I was doing. I decided to not let myself to play a part of their game. A game where they wanted me to be upset and give up, but here I am.
It's because of these ego filled humans that I will always say yes to people that want to collaborate with me. Why would I not want to do something that can only benefit the two of us? I want others to succeed and grow, not give up on their dream where I almost did. I can't tell you how many nights I thought of not doing photography anymore because it seemed like I wasn't making any progress, or even if I was it didn't feel like I was. My advice to anyone reading this is to not give up. There will be so many people talking you down and saying hurtful words behind your back to try to get you to stop working on your dream. Don't listen to that noise. Listen to your heart, it won't mislead you.
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I appreciate all of you. I hope one day I will be writing these in a studio in California or New York City. That's the dream anyways.
Remember no matter what your dream is, it's never too late to achieve it.